More sexy time

I don’t know if I’m liking it, but it seems that we’ve been having some sexy time on the phone practically every night already.  Sometimes we even do it in the morning.  Looks like he has been addicted to it already.  Hahaha!  He would keep on repeating the first time we did it when I told him to close his eyes and just imagine it was for real.

*sigh*

I guess it was another reason why I’m still not meeting up with him.  We just might end up doing it.  Right now that we’re just talking on the phone we are actually getting addicted to it already, what more when we end up seeing each other.  I’m almost certain we’ll end up doing it.  

I admit getting tempted.  But it still scares me.

I’m still a virgin.

Real reason?

I have been thinking more about the real reason why.  He has been asking me out more often and I just kept on turning him down. I just kept on making up the perfect excuses why I can’t.

Anyways, I haven’t told you yet, but he actually has a kid already.  Yes, he was married before but he said that they’re legally annulled now.  His kid lives with them.  I have actually talked to the kid a couple of times already over the phone.  Honestly, I do have mixed feelings with being with a guy who has a kid already.  I know I am thinking way ahead again.  But sometimes I just feel that I don’t want to put myself in the position where I would get too attached to him already and I would have all these issues to deal with.  Oh well…let’s just really see where this leads to.

Meeting for real?

Oh no!  I think I’m starting to fall for him.  I guess our closeness is just a bit confusing.  I don’t know what I mean to him.  We actually have been talking almost every night before going to sleep.  He has actually been asking me out so that we can meet.

don’t know why I still have my apprehensions to meet up with him…probably because I am intimidated by his stature.  Yes, I probably have a low self esteem.  He does come from a very well know political clan and I don’t think I would enjoy having that kind of lifestyle (hahaha! Ok ok, I’m probably thinking way ahead! As if we’re getting married already! Hahaha!)

Oh well. Let’s just see.  Sooner or later I would probably have to meet up with him.  Right now, I’m just enjoying being able to talk to him every night and getting to know more each other.

Some sexy time

OK, I admit we did have some sexy time over the phone.  It was actually quite an experience since he claims it was his first time on the phone.  I don’t know if he was just fooling around with me or if it adds a bit of excitement for him.  But I think it was really his first time since he didn’t actually know what to do and was practically clueless how it goes.

He says he will never forget the time when I told him to just close his eyes and just pretend that everything was happening for real.  He did closed his eyes and just imagined my kisses were for real.  He did started kissing me back and the rest was history. Hahaha! He was actually good for a first timer! Hahaha!

Phone pals

The first time he called me up, I was bit scared by his voice since it was too low.  Well, actually, after some time, it grew on me and actually liked it.  It was actually a bit sexy the way he speaks.  Bed room voice! Hahaha!

It’s very rare (close to impossible) that I would give my number in chat, but since he was actually a decent person, I did give him my number.  Actually, he himself was very careful, since he doesn’t give his number especially his landline to just anybody. Especially that he comes for a well known family, they really put high regard to security and privacy.

He eventually gave me his landline number after calling me on the telephone.  I felt honored that he trusted me even if we have just chatted on the phone.

guess what made us both trust that we were both honest was that, it turns out I know his sister.  She was my classmate back in college.  It was nice knowing somebody in common.